Praying can be difficult sometimes, at least for me.
I like praying for others and their intentions; I like praying with thanksgiving and gratitude. I am learning to pray to request His Help. After all, we would want our children to come to us when they have a problem, right? If we knew they had a problem that we could help them with, and they didn't come to us, I think we'd feel sad and hurt that they didn't trust us enough to ask, especially if it was something that they couldn't do on their own, or could do better if they had our help. Sure, we need to learn to do things on our own, and make our way, but we truly can't do anything without the Lord. All Glory is to Him!
So I'm learning. I feel selfish when I ask Him for help, especially when my requests are little tiny things that don't deserve His time. Remember, though, we don't deserve His Time, or Love, either, but He gives them to us, freely and happily. It's hard to ask when you feel the complete unworthiness of being human, and being a sinner.
I recently had a super large report and project I completed, and in the past, had some difficulties with the process on my end and with the clients. Before I started the project, I prayed for His Help in completing the project portion fully. Before starting the large report portion, I again prayed, this time for His Assistance on my portion, as well as for the client I was submitting the project for. I then got to work. I turned over my prayers to Him and didn't dwell on them. And what did He decide to do?
Well, He answered my prayers completely. Yes, 100%. Whereas before there were often days and days of communication, clarification and discussion, there were no questions. Zero. My report was basically perfect, and their reception was as well. It wasn't just me the prayers were answered for, either. Many times the feedback and clarification I received from them was in the report and project, but they missed it. Not this time.
Sadly, perhaps, I didn't even think about all the prayers I said for the project until a few days afterwards. I had so completely turned it over to God and did my part, and He did His part, that it was so natural and felt so right.
All Praises and Glory to God, in all His Goodness, all His Wisdom, and all His Love. Thank you, Father.