I had a rotten Monday. I didn't sleep well, so from the start I wasn't in a good mood. I'm still struggling with grief over my blessed Uncle heading Home to the Lord, not only for myself, but for my cousins and aunt. Just everything seemed to be hitting me wrong (including PMS, to be honest), and even saying the Rosary or taking a nap didn't really help as much as I had hoped. It reminded me that I used to feel that way EVERY DAY, EVERY MOMENT, when I was going through severe depression. That scared me....was I headed back that way? I couldn't imagine living like that again. I tried to remain in prayer, turning to Him, and still praising Him. I didn't do a very good job. I did reach out on Facebook to a few close friends; their thoughts and prayers helped so much. Plus, it gave me a moment of humility in knowing I needed to reach out for help. I'm not very good at that. I also didn't have a very good coping mechanism, and was very weak. I prayed that I would not succumb to sin. St. Michael the Archangel, defend us in battle! Be our protection from the wickedness and snares of the devil.....He protected me from own selfish wants and needs, that is for sure! Plus, I know that my day would have been even worse had I not been praying and turning to God.
Today, I woke up early, after a fairly restful night's sleep (which I didn't expect). I prayed, and then realized I had plenty of time to get to my favorite weekday Mass. I headed that way and was able to pray a Rosary on the way. I arrived in time for Reconciliation (always behind the screen/anonymous). While I didn't have any thing major to confess, I partly was going to Confession in *thanksgiving*. Christ truly revealed Himself to me in the Confessional in many of the Words spoken through the priest, very relative to what I'm going through in parts of my life, that the priest himself had no way of knowing since they weren't related to any of my sins I confessed, yet were very, very specific. At the end of Confession, I asked the priest to include my uncle in his prayers today, as his funeral was this afternoon across the country.
During Mass, the priest often relates the Saint being honored that day to the Gospel, or just in general. Today, of all days, is the feast day of St. Frances Xavier. He is the patron saint of foreign missions and Catholic missions, among other things. The priest called him the greatest missionary of all time. Today, in Florida, my favorite and greatest missionary of my time, was honored. My aunt is not Catholic, nor are my uncle or my cousins. I don't believe that they knew today was this feast day. What a great honor for my uncle! Praise and thanks to the Lord for this gift.
Carrying on, I actually had a good experience <!> returning my new laptop for a replacement, and actually had some good things come out of it; from this led to another opportunity to share Christ's love with three people, and share the joy of Christmas. When something good happens to us, we should always share that joy. As much as my pride is trying to push me to share what it is that I did, I'm trying to ignore it!
One of my friends on Facebook said she'd pray that I'd have a glorious Tuesday. The bell in my head still didn't ring.....
On Sunday, on our way to Mass, I mentioned to my husband that I miss the Gloria during Advent and Lent. I really and truly do. I love singing that prayer. Today, as I related my day to my husband, I told him about the lady I met this afternoon...an elderly lady and her husband. Her name? *Gloria* And then I remembered the car license plate I saw earlier today heading into the computer store as well: Gloria. AMEN! Thank you and praise you, Lord Jesus.
I pray you, my friends, have a Glorious day!
O God, who through the preaching of Saint Francis Xavier won many peoples to yourself, grant that the hearts of the faithful may burn with the same zeal for the faith and that Holy Church may everywhere rejoice in an abundance of offspring. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever.
Prayer by Saint Francis Xavier
Eternal God, Creator of all things, remember that You alone has created the souls of unbelievers, which You have made according to Your Image and Likeness. Behold, O Lord, how to Your dishonor many of them are falling into Hell. Remember, O Lord, Your Son Jesus Christ, Who so generously shed His Blood and suffered for them. Do not permit that Your Son, Our Lord, remain unknown by unbelievers, but, with the help of Your Saints and the Church, the Bride of Your Son, remember Your mercy, forget their idolatry and infidelity, and make them know Him, Who You have sent, Jesus Christ, Your Son, Our Lord, Who is our salvation, our life, and our resurrection, through Whom we have been saved and redeemed, and to Whom is due glory forever. Amen.